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I fucking hate my life right now... I "betrayed" my parents by calling Tiffany so many fucking times...Im becoming a real asshole...Im a jerk to some...and Im real cranky and over stressed at the moment... Yea, I fucking hate my life...I hate my life right now... My life has been a mess ever since August with lots of shit that has happened and all the emotional shit that I have been goin through... Im hating my life this very moment...I have so much fucking homework its unbelievable! I start training this Monday and I will only get 5 hours of sleep a night and I have to do my homework the whole damn times... Ugh, my life fucking sucks at this moment..I hate it... Shit...I cant even chat and do my homework unless my mom comes in here and starts bitching at me for fucking chatting! Ugh, I should just fucking leave...I should.... Im not going to be online for weeks, at least that is what Pablo told me... And if Tiffany calls...my rents will call her parents and tell her that she is not to call anymore until a period of time has passed... Fuck! Yea, I hate my life... I should just give up on things for the moment...I should just give up on what I enjoy and just live my dull boring life like I used to... I cant wait till Im 18...Im leaving...never coming back... Oh...did I forget to mention that Im grounding my self? Well, I am. Im punishing myself for the fucking bills that I am giving my parents...I am...Im not going to send Tiffanys present for a few more days...by Friday it should be at her place...the last time Im contacting her for weeks... Im not going to call...not going to chat for weeks with her...Im never using my cell phone ever again... Im just going to chat once I am done with this fucking mess... I just need...time...time to get my life fucking straightened up... No Tiffany for a few weeks will do that...I keep saying it but this time I have to since we are not going to talk till the weekends...and even on the weekends I may only have like an hour or so of chatting to do... I hate this fucking history homework...106 terms...due next week...fuck that! Im going to go before I say fuck one more time...oops, I said it...
Dave
Matthews Band + Jason Mraz
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