I am a big risk taker. I take many risks in life. Some of those risks are flat out stupid, and others are well thought out.  Either path that my choices in life have lead me to, I have come out of them wiser, stronger, bolder, more loveable, etc.  I take risks, because like if about risks.  Without risks, we wouldn't be who we are.  We wouldn't do what we do.  We wouldn't love who we love.  And we wouldn't be where we are.

My life is a risk.  Loving is a risk.  Stepping out of my house is a risk.  Everything I do is a risk.  It feels good. It feels so good.  It makes me feel alive.  It keeps me on my toes.  It makes my senses go wild.  I am being crazy, irrational, emotional, foolish, and yet I am perfectly alright.  My emotions are at their max.  My mind is at its max.  My heart is open wide and waiting for whatever love might bring it.  Or whatever pains it might receive. 

I am crazy. Irrational.  I need a hug.  I need to cuddle, to kiss soft, pink lips.  I need to be staring into a pair of brown eyes and smiling all night.  I need to be wrapped up in the blankets, holding hands, arms wrapped up tight around each other. Whispering sweet nothing into your ear, and knowing that the night is still young for 3:51 in the morning.  I miss you, and I don't want to be out of your life.  I don't want to know that what I just heard is true.  That you didn't tell me the truth.

What is this risk that I am taking?  It's quite simple.  Everyone knows.  At least, I know most people know.  This is the single, most ridiculous thing that I will ever have done in my life.  It excites me to know that I am putting everything on the line, that the only reason I am moving out of here is for a girl.  A girl that may or may not like me romantically in a year.  Yet, it doesn't matter.  I am only interested in the future.  In the future that may be with her.  In what could be, in what could happen.  I am following both mind and soul.  Body and spirit.  I am doing something crazy, something that many people disapprove of.  I am being spontaneous.  I love it. Its exciting, its trilling.  No matter what the circumstance, no matter what the outcome...I will be alright.  I will be stronger, bolder, wiser.  I will survive whatever the future holds.

I am in a search of love.  I am in a search of love, which involves many risks, many crazy risks.  I am living life to the fullest.  I am being myself.

This is my philosophy, my outlook on life:

I learned that the world is not in black in white, but in many shades of colors. It's because of those many different shades of colors that we develop our perspective, and how we become who we are. The world is full of colors -- open your eyes and see them.

Dana said that I was emotional and in a constant search for love.  She has part of it life.  I am in a constant search for many things.  I am in search of love, happiness, enlightment, contentment and my other half.  It is a big, long, difficult, treacherous journey that I have embarked on.  I am only 18, and I am taking on such a big giant.

In one year, I will be in Jacksonville.  This is where I will be living the next four years of my life.  With her, is who I want to be able to kiss good night once I go into my room.

I am head over heels in such an amazing state of mind.  I am just....indescribable.

I am content....