Ghost - Howie Day

Lately I've been thinking 
Lately I've been dreaming with you 
I'm so resistant to this type of thinking 
Oh, now it's shining through 
I was alone for the last time 
Before my night's vacation with you 
Alive from the first 
Now I'm denied by the ghost of you 

You take yourself a photograph and laugh at me 
Please 

I know there's little use in crying 
It's more wide awake and dying then I'm used to 
I thought we'd walk these streets together 
Now I'm hoping that I'll never have to meet you 
Step aside from all this anger 
And somewhere in between I can feel you 
Ask me should we try again 
I'm thinking no 
Y'know, it's not what I believe in 
It's not what I believe in 

You take yourself a photograph and laugh at me 
Please 
You make yourself a photograph and laugh at me 
Please 

No I, wanna taste you, love 
No I...no I 
No I, just wanna taste you, love 

Standing in your shoes 
I turn and now 
You're standing bare in my doorway 
I only wish that I had been prepared 
I'm gonna have to go along with your way 
Just take the plastic camera out 
It's the pants you borrowed in the driveway 
Alive from the first 
Now I'm denied by the ghost of you 

Make yourself a photograph and laugh at me 
Please 
You make yourself a photograph and laugh at me 
Please 

No I, wanna taste of love 
No I... 

I was alive from the first 
Now I'm denied by the ghost of you

I love this song.  Its so sad, yet so me for some damn unexplained reason.  I wanted to go up to see you today, and put balloons on your mailbox, and wait till you got home so I can finally see you after 5 months.  I just wanted to hold you, and to see you smile, and maybe even...kiss you?

But that is not going to happen, so I give up all those silly notions that you and I will get back together ever again.  No sense in thinking about them since you don't want any part of me in that way. 

Yet, I am thinking of seeing you tomorrow....*sigh*